TEAR DUCT MALFUNCTION

Can you believe this, Friday the 13th is my last day of treatment. Good news for me and bad luck for cancer. Dr Wagner did put me back on chemo last Tues. and it came through as usual and I felt terrible for a couple of days, but no break in treatment. The mouth is doing OK, although it feels like there's a current running through it now. Anybody need a jump start?

I believe it will make it 5 more days. My neck is peeling now, but it is also holding up well. Thank you for your prayers concerning these issues. You won't believe this, I know I can't believe it, but I am typing this with gloves on. Why am I wearing gloves, you ask? Darn good question. The truth is my hands have been freezing from the effects of the chemo, some neuro word.

I do have a strange sensation happening. I think that it is a side effect of all the drugs and radiation that they’re giving me. This one wasn’t mentioned on any of the, longer than a roll of Charmin, lists of side effects that they have given me. I think its TEAR DUCT MALFUNCTION. It seems that at any inopportune time my eyes begin to leak. When I think about people I miss, they leak. When I talk to people I love, they leak. When I talk to people I don’t even know, they leak. When I think about how wonderful my wife is, they leak. When I think about all my steadfast support, they leak. Will this side effect clear up after treatment? I don’t have an answer for that one, but I hope it improves, because sometimes it’s downright embarrassing, if you know what I mean.

I’m reminded in Luke chapter 7 of the time when Jesus was invited to the house of one of the Pharisees for dinner, when a woman who had led a sinful life found out that Jesus was going to be there. She brought an alabaster jar of perfume, and as she stood behind at his feet weeping, she began to wet his feet with her tears. Then she wiped them with her hair, kissed them and poured perfume on them. Of course, she was ostracized by the Pharisee because she was a sinner. What the Pharisee didn’t know was that Jesus would use this opportune time to compare his treatment of Jesus to hers. The Pharisee didn’t even welcome Jesus with a kiss or wash his feet. Then Jesus told them, “Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven---for she loved much. But he who has been forgiven little loves little.” Then Jesus said to her, “ Your sins are forgiven.”
These are not tears of sorrow, they are tears of gratitude, joy and thankfulness. Perhaps these tears aren’t an embarrassment after all.

Thank you Roger and Jim for the continued rides to treatment. You guys are the awesomest. I know, my girlfriend appreciates the much needed break. Thank you everyone for all the prayers and continued support.

Love and hugs,

Old Jer